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hey guys!!i am soo sorry for not updating. Its been ages since i last did, somein like 8/9 days if im not wrong. RIDICULOUS and i apologize. I actually just have had no motivation to do so, trying to get on with life

Yes, i've been havin a tough past couple of weeks. Its something really personal and me being a deep thinker and emotional person, just cant seem to get my mind off things. I would love to share my troubles but you know, there are just some things which you cant disclose.

On the bright side, classes are starting next week, the 3rd of march. I'm not too sure if thats a good thing or not but who cares. Im pretty determined to get even better grades than i did last sem, to complete my second year with pride. I remember my dad saying ' I'm proud of you' when i got my results last sem, so i hope that the word 'very' would be added to that by the end of this one =)

Ohh, and i finally figured out how to work my very manly PINK Ipod Nano which i got for my birthday. Im not much of a tech fella so this is a real milestone.haha. Despite its very guy like colour, i do love it alot and appreciate the kindness of the person who gave it to me.

AND to all my friends who commented on my tagbox, thank you so much for re visiting my blog despite the no updates. I do assure you of many more frequent posts. Thanks guys =), really appreciate it

'Hardest Story I've Ever Told'

I want this pain to go away. For both of us to be happy again, to move on from that day. Our once almost perfect relationship seems to have taken a bruising over the last week or so and that itself has really been hurtful.

I love you and seeing you cry just destroys me inside. What more I have to kiss ur salty tearing eyes=).Our late night calls to try and solve things has taken a toll on you and i'm so sorry for that. I've really tried moving on, but its just too hard and painful.

Chui Nee, I love you with my heart and more and i'm sure we can work things out. And if we cant, I want you to know that you'll forever have a place in my heart. To me, you're truly more than just my girlfriend. =) (: (tu) (sn)

17/02/08

I'm soo soo sorry for not blogging in a very very long long time. To be honest, i've been having a really bad past week or so. Its something that cant be talked about brought up and so on; a real sensitive issue. And becayse of that, i've tried to steer clear of any online activities as it hurt to look at past memories.

Anyways, today was my lil special day. I've officially turned 19 and in less than a year's time ill never be a teenager again. Sadcase. So i better enjoy this last carefree year to the fullest. As soon as the clock struck 12 i felt abt 13 grey hairs sprout out.

Well, it was a really memorable day, somein ill never forget. So here goes the thank yous =)

Thanks to my buddies who came and crossed the day with me as well as their thoughtful gifts.

Thanks to my mates whom i spent the last few hours with devouring an ais kacang

Thanks to my parents for everything they had done

Thanks to everyone for their kind wishes, calls cause i really really appreciate it

Thanks to Ken and Chui San for lunch and driving me there too. haha

And lastly thanks to my girl for for cooking dinner for me, for your sweet sweet prezzies ;) =), for all the moments spent today

Its a day ill truly never forget. THANKS EVERYONE =)

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Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends, chinese and non chinese too. Honestly, i dont really know which category i fall into. I'm stuck, confused somwhere in between. But it was a lovely Chinese New Year's eve, had the typical family reunion with my mum's bro and his family. Spent time with my cousins and had a pleasant visit from my neighbours who incidentally, are a chinese + indian couple except its the wife who is indian.

Also, today happens to mark the second month with my girl, Chui Nee =). It's been an amazing journey thus far, i know its still a rather early phase in our relationship but it has been a dream come true. You're a beautiful person in everyway possible and many people would agree with me on that. Love you babe, Happy Happy Happy 2 Months.

She made this collage, haha i'm as creative as a dog

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hey guys. ive been pretty lazy to blog these past couple day, well months actually. As my friend says 'Blogs are for girls, not for guys'. But in a way he said that first a couple months ago and ive proved him wrong ever since i started this blog. haha. I think he knows who he is.

Well as for life, it just has been a real big confusion. I've been down but at times very normal lately. The thing is, just as you think life would be blissful and problem less, something would shoot you down hard.

Maybe its my worries about NS, maybe its my friends (i do miss me two best mates brian and fung[us]) , maybe its studies. MAYBE it might just be all culminating into one big giant problem which just gets me down every dam day. AIhs this January has been completely different to the one i had last year. Though i've had one very bright spark to help ease the pain =)

Gosh that was not a very manly post. Who cares its my blog . muahaha. sorry. alrite i guess thats it for now. Just had to rant

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well after 5 days, i quit my job. Its actually not one of those successive part time jobs where you go in everyday. So the fact that i did it in 5 consecutive days just made it impossible for me to walk in that office one more time.

I did manage to get 71 forms verified on the last day, which is an achievement within an achievement. Everybody seemed to answer their phones on that very good friday. haha. But oh wells, for that 5 days of work i managed to get quite a decent amount of cash so i guess thats a plus point, besides meeting the two co workers jen and chris.

So its back to bumming around the house though i did get an offer from ikea to work for them. Turned it down sadly but i guess the offer is still open for me to take. The lure of sleeping and waking up late without having any commitments to work just seems to much to turn down. muahaha. so OH WELLS

so i guess thats all i have to update y'all with, besides putting on weight. so its back to the gym too

Work - Day 3

It has been 3 days now, and as predicted i hate it. I just cant stadn the fact that i have to be disciplined and wake up at some fucked up ungodly hour everyday. Not to mention the rush hour traffic i have to deal with after work. Its nuts. ITS the holidays and i should really be doing somein real unproductive like sleep.

You know, sleep is probably more productive to me than working! Calling 80 customers a day seems easy ay? Not if they've forgotten their IC cards, or think you're a conmen so on and so forth.Okay enough said, i think ill probably stop working on friday. Some cash earnt hasnt hurt but i just cant take the boredom anymore.

If it wasn't for meeting my quota, workin today wasn't actually too bad. Chui Nee =) joined me for a day to cover for someone. She too got a taste of what i've been doing and going through. Its frustrating at times isnt it sayang? haha. But it was real nice working with her next to me, screaming, smiling, smackin me. Damn they all start with an S.

Well the decision has been made that ill work for the next two days and call it a day. So hopefulyl when i tell my boss tomorrow it would not be so bad.